Damn, it’s hard being the 3.14th wheel. I added the extra, being slightly larger than the average bear that I am.

I’ve never felt more alone in the world than I do today. I started thinking about all the people I know and the fact that they all have significant others or someone else that they devote their time to in a non-stalking fashion. My siblings, parents, fellow students… even my partner-in-crime at work. They all are either married, getting married, have children, in a committed relationship… someone else is a close source of mutual strength & support for them. I doubt my sister would agree with that, but then, she has her daughter. I truly think only someone on the outside can see all this. How can I look at them and not feel pained?

People tell me I’m not relegated to such an existence forever, and the truth is I usually believe them. It’s every once in a while you hit one of those days when it’s hard to keep the faith and march on. You can only solo for so long before you have to rely on someone else for more gas, you know?

I know I’m a bit of a hermit. It’s true. I suppose if people didn’t scare me so much, I’d be out there more actively searching for the “other half”.

So what set off this missive of maudlin meditation? Well, that’s simple enough. I found a perfect woman today… and she’s getting married in a couple of weeks. Oh, well, that’s the story of my life, I suppose.

To end on a lighter note, a really funny blog has been making the rounds in the Net. So I also will link to this incredibly poignant look at the misunderstood genius of Darth Vader. Enjoy the read… or he may crush your trachea with his mind.

My word,what a time it has been. April has come and gone like a shot. My next birthday’s around the corner and school’s almost over for the semester. Well, the second part may not be so bad, considering I’m doing well in my classes.

The only interesting thing recently was an attempt to sucker me with one of those scams via IM. It’s both funny and sad, really, to think that this stuff works on people. You can see an example of some of this here. The transcript of the conversations with “Susan Jennifer” are particularly hilarious.

As a closing, I’d like to give a shout out to Wil Wheaton and express my condolences on the sudden loss of his cat, Sketch. I’m not a pet person, but with this coming so soon on the heels of the other one, I feel bad for you. Here’s hoping it’s not a permanent void for you…

I’m already running out of ideas again to write in this blog. Uh-oh… that’s never a good sign. I’d like to toss in a couple of links I found whilst wandering the web and other people’s blogs out there.

The first is the South Park Studio, where you can create your own likeness within the cartoon world of the four wise men — Stan, Kyle, Kenny & Cartman. I’ll put my own up in here… as soon as I can figure out how. But it’s a well-done & fun site to kill some time with.

The other is called SCIgen. It is an online site at MIT where some graduate students developed a computer program that generates a Computer Science paper complete with everything… everything, that is, except substance. It is a completely context-free paper. They even submitted a couple of these generated papers to WMSCI, which stands for… well, it’d take up too much bandwidth to type it. One of these papers even got accepted! Of course, they backpedaled when they found out it was a hoax. But congrats to Jeremy Stribling, Max Krohn and Dan Aguayo for stickin’ one to the intellectual bureaucracy!

Vive le pensée créative!!

Is that a good way to start off the week? I smushed one of my fingers in a filing cabinet at work. Yipes!! That’s a sting pain! That’s all right, man… walk it off, walk it off.

Had another rather dull day at school. My bio class consisted of watching more of a NOVA special on the Human Genome Project. As much as some of the ideas fascinate me, the host of that special was a little annoying at times. Felt like he was talking down to the audience a bit. Well, we finished class early at any rate.

I finished up my application to ASU this evening. So, hopefully, they’ll accept me and I’ll be a Sun Devil this time next year. I’m looking forward to actually finishing college this time out. What the hell? Fourth or fifth time’s the charm, right?

Ah, this is the way it should be. Sitting at my favorite cafe, hanging with my brother and taking advantage of technological improvements to access the internet. Life is good.

Now, if only I had something interesting to say today.

I played hooky from school this morning. That’s the first time I’ve done that in a long time. But, so help me, I just didn’t feel like going today… no offense to my teacher. Gave me motivation & time to clean my bathroom. What does that say about me that I actually wanted to clean my toilet today more than I wanted to be learning things?

Tomorrow, I have the day off of work. But I’ll be working plenty. I’m going to the university to plan out my future trasfer to that fine institution of higher learning. The sad thing is that there is so much to do in advance, it’s almost not worth it. Nevertheless, I shall go forth and part the red tape.

In other news, this is a few days old, but I was saddened to hear that Christopher Eccleston had opted not to return for the next season of the new Doctor Who series. He’s been rather enjoyable to watch in the first couple of episodes. Apparently, he’s afraid of being typecast as the Doctor. Well, as much as I want to scream “DAVID CARUSO” at him, I can’t. He’s actually had a good career anyway. I am curious who they get for the next guy. I’d do it, if they could live with an American in the role… naaaah, they’d never buy it.

Well, I guess this would mark the one-year anniversary of this blog. Yay me! I admit I wasn’t as faithful with this in 2004 as I could’ve been. Just never had much to say I suppose. But much as a roller coaster reaches its first peak before plummeting into the ride, so have I hit the point of release… I hope.

My march towards an acting career goes ever onward. I went to my first improv class on Sunday. Quite enjoyable and something I would recommend to anyone, actor or not, who has interest in this form. There are several in my class who’ve never acted. They’re as fun to watch as the veterans, and for the same reasons!

An old friend of mine made quite a sacrifice this weekend. She freely donated her time (AND her hair) to raise money for St Baldrick’s, a charity that supports research into childhood cancer. It’s a good cause and one hell of a funny way to raise money in support. Check out the site & see if there is an event near you or how to organize one so that you can channel that overwhelming desire to shave someone bald in a productive use. In either case, you can also see an example of the shaving here. Rock on, Sinead– er, I mean, Christina!

I might even dare to give it a shot next year… especially if I start losing my hair at a faster rate. :-p